When we lose pounds, we celebrate. We equate the pounds to the unappealing excess that took over our bodies and disfigured the beauty within. But after the pounds dissolve, and the waistline reappears, have we actually lost ALL of the weight that slows us down? Is there a person, a situation, a job, or even your mind that weighs you down to the point that even makes carrying a normal weight, a heavy load?
I’m on a journey of losing weight; eating healthy and getting in shape. I’ve turned away fried foods, high carbs and starches that I loved and traded them for fruits, vegetables, and smaller portions. It’s an acquired taste, in relation to the high octane cravings that caused me to gain fifty pounds more than I should be weighing. It was never hunger that got me to this obese state…it was emotional eating my way through my problems. The weight that surrounded my heart, had infiltrated into my spirit, which weighed it down with laziness, sluggardness, and lethargy. Usually when a problem trumped into rocking me to the core, I’d go on a eating spree. Grabbing a bag of chips, sugar wafers, biscuits, anything that could comfort/soothe the hole in my heart. Unfortunately, it does more than fill holes, it hangs on to bones and turns muscles into fat. My once curvaceous body slowly became rolling hills of fat and mass. The domino effect of emotional eating trajects into your physical health, I became slower…breathing heavy after climbing one flight of stairs. Things hurt that I didn’t think were normal for my young age. My legs became tired, too heavy to carry the baggage of problems that hurt me and the fat that represented it.
The real weight that I had to lose first was the past….the problems that seemingly resulted into me not finding a solution but a coping mechanism in the form of food. I realized my problems and wrote them down one-by-one. What could I do to solve them instead of bury them in a landfill of food? Well, certainly we all have situations from our past that weigh us down. Each one affects us in a different way. It shapes our personality, it determines how we form relationships. Some of our past situations can never be corrected. Just like an athlete losing the championship game, it’s over, and all you can do is prepare to take the trophy home next year. Unfortunately the vicissitudes of life do not come with an instruction guide on how to deal with them. So, I coped the best way I knew how. I didn’t have the skills to know how to turn tragedy into triumph. I covered my hurt with food and self-deprecation. I understand that now, but before, I ate about it. The shame….2 hamburger combo please! The hurt…3 butter biscuits and a orange juice! See where I’m going with this. Yours may not be molestation, but it can be any situation that caused you pain and you covering it with trips to a buffet line.
The weight of our past is baggage that belongs to us, but like any airline trip, after you claim the bag and take it with you, you unpack it to see what’s inside. Maybe you pack the items you really need or you carry along things that you never even use. Packing a bag is a reflection of who you are and what you truly need. As you continue life’s journey, ensure that you are losing the weight that hinders you from being your authentic self, and not carrying unnecessary items that weigh you down and transform into fat! We can all lose weight in the form of pounds, but in order to keep it off and be what God intended for us to be, be advised of the obesity that surrounds your heart. The problems you avoid multiply and change the landscape of your spirit. It keeps you in a sedentary, daily regime. Inactive. Dormant. No longer living life, but coexisting, waiting for life to happen. Lose the weight within and watch the loss succumb the obstacles that prevent you from living a more healthy and jovial lifestyle! If there’s anything to gain, let it be self-worth and all the beautiful things that we can be when nothing else weighs us down!