Quickie #1 – Live and Let Die

My quickies are in no relation to the disappointing finale, experienced way too soon.  I just wanna give a little quick words of wisdom to start your day, week, or life over.  I honestly share thoughts, that I’ve written to myself.  So, here goes:

Don’t hold on to something that’s dead.  Doing so, will only cause its spoiled and molded presence to penetrate into your own makeup.  Distance yourself from any person, relationship, or situation that no longer has a shelf life that the FDA would approve.  Accept the course that it ran, for whatever lesson you were to retract from it, and send it off.  Not like the prodigal son hoping for an expected return, but like Adam and Eve getting kicked out of the garden.  See ya!  Some stuff you just gotta let go, and let God, the universe, Karma, Buddha, pick a title…let the Big Man take care of it.  Respect that it is not your duty or in your ability to shape and mold anyone into the person you think he or she should be.  You are not that powerful or all that!

Your body expels waste from your body daily (I hope).  It was carefully designed to hold onto what is good, and let the bad stuff go!  Trust the process…goodbyes have a reason.  Maybe not for physical nourishment, but your emotional health is just as important.  If your body can get rid of the bad stuff, without even being told…why can’t you?

The Guy Code

I made a mistake and tried the old value honesty out last night.  I should’ve just taken the advice I tried to relay to Carrie before she told Mr. Big about her big kiss, but hey…I guess a little love was somewhere in the mix.  So after wiping the dust off the piece of info, I had to tell him.  After the explanation, I got an unpleasant frown and body gestures that immediately counter-acted the ones before.  It was apparent that the piece of info I shared caused a platonic collide, a tidal wave swallowed an entire village, or I just told him something he would rather not have known.  Well, shoot me. Ow!  I gave up the info because I didn’t want him to hear it from the other person. 

Judgment day was yesterday in my case.  And apparently sharing my little piece of information was enough to make him roll up one.

I walked to my car and did the oh so, dramatic gesture of speeding off.  But my wheels didn’t make the noise, so I don’t think he noticed!  I know every man has a past.  A past that’s full of heartbreaks, one night stands, orgies, the list goes on.  He can play the field, send Trojan stock through the roof, but my one rendezvous from ages ago is human genocide.  My past challenges the “guy code”?  Well, that’s what he said.

K’…. a.k.a. Jezebel =(

Bittersweet

I am in love…and it’s with a break-up song! Word up! Somebody finally put an uptempo ballad to the lyrics of my love life.  Cue Fantasia’s new single, “Bittersweet”. 

Late December and it still appears in my rear view mirror. Our relationship was a roller-coaster ride. But, I still haven’t thrown out that box of things he gave me.  And sometimes I even miss him.  But if I had to do it all over again, it would still be him over there and me over here.  He can love all up on someone else.  And I can fall in love all over again.  But my thoughts still reverberate from time to time.  It’s a bipolar feeling, smile, then frown.  Part of me wants you, part of me don’t.  Part of me is missing you , part of me is gone. 

This shit is bittersweet.